My writer’s block is really killing me. I’m making an analogy of writing to love. The hell! This should be easy.
Well, first off, I apologize in advance for not answering right away. I wanted to get my answer right. The way I see it, I can present two options (there are more, but just go up and kiss him is not very helpful, is it?).
A) Wait for him. Be the good friend, support him, and be by his side. Maybe he will develop feelings for you in the future.
B) Forget about him for a moment and focus on you. Focus on figuring your stuff out instead of constantly trying to figure his stuff out. Make yourself a better person. You don’t have to forget your crush but just make the crush a lesser priority to making yourself better. Try to find yourself. Study Buddhism. Become immersed in art, jazz, poetry, sports. Make yourself grow and succeed and love things that are not him. Make yourself a better you and forget about him.
Look, I don’t know your situation completely and I don’t want to give you a opinion that harms your situation. But I think you should consider Option B more than Option A. Mainly because when you forget about love for a while, it slaps you awake with something new. Cupid is flipping irresponsible, but you, my dear anon, are the shit. You are the shit, the big shit, the top shit. You are better than what your emotions tell you you are. You are worth more than what your insecurities value you as. You are greater than the two roads that you see in front of you because you have the rare ability to rip up the tricking map and plow your way through the undergrowth hiding a beautiful new horizon. Make yourself better because when you make yourself better, and try to find yourself. When you do that, even if you don’t find yourself completely, someone usually comes along to fill in the pieces that are missing. Take it from me: you are worth more than what you limit yourself to. Don’t forget your friendship. But just forget the ship for a while, because you can find that you swim pretty well when you aren’t weighed down by the stress of that, and you’ll find deeper oceans than the water you’re in now.